65.

Some moments are so filled with joy, love, hope
and expectation that I lock them into my heart.
As they are contradicted by time and experience,
they produce disappointment and bitterness.
Only once I open my heart to lovingly view those
original moments, smile gratefully at them
and let go of them as memories of the past,
can I live in the present with power from
opening myself up again to the possibilities
of future disappointment and joy.

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